Do I have a life list? Well, of course I have and I have a lot– not the entries, but the versions of this list. I am the type who’d make a list, then discard it the day after, ending up having made a hundred of unfulfilled entries.

Just like how many blogsites I have made, mostly paid plans, and now, I have decided not to buy a plan because finally, after 20 years of blogging, I realized I’d end up deleting my blog and replacing it with something more “me” at that moment. Plus, I have become less interested into spending money on these things. *Edit: Sep 2 – 2025 (I upgraded yet again because of the ads).

My list should only include:

• Fall in love -X
• Do something I thought I could not do – X
• Love someone unconditionally – X
• Make my parents happy – X
• Make a difference (partially fulfilled)

I think this is enough. And having accomplished what I think matters is enough. Was it boring?! In all my lists, I never wrote something interesting like bungee jump or sky dive because those aren’t the things I want to do just like how I hate alcoholic drinks. I mean, I don’t like things that make me feel worse than I already feel.

I like what the mom did here (in the movie)– leaving video messages to her daughter because she thought she hasn’t done enough with her life — or at least the things she thought she should be doing. I tried doing this and … recording is impossible because I would burst into tears and ending up weeping the whole time. It’s not ideal to leave them something that would be so depressing. It’s like you would want to traumatize them from the grave?

I still pray for longer life. I believe that the Lord can do all things and that nothing is impossible.

I think parents have this mortality issues when they reach their 40s. I remember my mom being this dramatic 30 years ago. Or is it just us?

Oh well. Whatever it is, I know the Lord’s got my back.